Yes Indeedy

These decisions alter direction
Propelling me forward
Into the arms of my fear
Into the arms of self-protection

I long to be held
Even as I offer my own embrace
Arms strong and kind
I turn away

Fear motivates all
As does protection
Mitigating and numbing
Knowing anger hurts

Yet now I survive
Thrive on this truth
Nurturing this smoulder until ignition
With faith I will remain unsinged

Sirens explode into fantasy
And I choose snooze
Yesterday is not yet far enough

Time flies through days identical
Patterns of living recycled
Seven then seven then seven of the same

Sirens explode into fantasy
Tomorrow I will choose differently
Just as I did last time

this brain this heart
are what i have
awake and alive
i will navigate you

blind corners
rough roads
i tread heavily
looking for words

now lost now found
seek landmarks
this tan house
that fir tree

time is wisdom and distance
words, my property
i will look back
but will not rest

Here is the usual pressure
Break the silence with something
Something better than golden
And bring a truth back to life

Rather than these longing fantasies
Closeness full of expectation
It is my time to learn to celebrate self
Canvas the world with jubilance

Come into the fold, my dears
Bask in our light of intention
For when I find resolution to this ache
I've no doubt one of you will be standing strong